I just wanted to give a quick update.
I am honestly having a really hard time thinking positively about this cycle. I hate that I am feeling this way, especially at only 5 days past transfer, but I am just feeling very discouraged.
My progesterone check from yesterday came back at 13.5, which is less than it needs to be. I upped my dosage of progesterone yesterday, and a lot more today. For some reason, even though I have heard so many women have gotten pregnant on worse progesterone levels that that, it completely discouraged me. I keep fighting with myself, feeling like it's over, and there's no way it worked.
Part of the discouragement is that I am already not feeling well on the amount that I am on, and adding more has made me more tired and emotional....so bear with me, a lot of this is hormones talking.
I also know a lot of people don't get a positive pregnancy test until many days after transfer, and my blood test is this friday at 8 days past...I am wondering if that's too soon.
Honestly I am glad I am working this week because it gives me a distraction. When I am home, or alone with my thoughts, all I can think is that this is never going to happen for us.
Sorry to be a downer, but I needed to vent a little.
For those of you who are praying for us, thank you. And please continue to. Not only that it will work, but that I can keep a positive outlook on this, and trust God, because there's nothing that I can do to control the outcome of this, and I hate that.
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Oh Sweetie, please try and relax!!! Go to bed nice and early- hopefully tomorrow will bring rays of sunshine. My clinic didn't even test progesterone level- so who knows how low it could have been. A 13 is more than many pregnancies had at this point.
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Honey-Don't let the enemy ATTACK! God is good and he will see you through. Think positive and pray (like you aren't already, I know). Many out here in bloggyville are continuing to pray and route for those babes! DO NOT give up!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine the stress that you are under right now. I am already starting to experience these thoughts and I am still a few months from the transfer. Praying that you are able to relax and remain calm during these last few days. Easier said than done, I know!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to let you know that you still have people praying for you and your babies.
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